I have trust issues. They really started to kick in last school year as a freshman in high school. I had a good group of friends in the beginning we were in field marching we all had the same interests. Then one day they just stopped talking to me and including me in things. Naturally I went and asked why and then this whole feud over Canvas messaging started. For those who don’t know Canvas was what my old school used for classes and posting assignments and the messaging was just like the facebook messenger.

So I was talking to the “ringleader” of the group and she told me it was because I was mistreating everyone in the group, which I had her elaborate on and she gave me false information. Everything she gave me as “proof” was stuff that me and the other girl, that the arguments were with, and settled down and got on an agreement. So after a while we all became friends again except for me and the “ringleader”. The rest of the group and I would hang out after school while we were waiting for rides.

Turns out they were only trying to get close to me so they could get to my sister for the “ringleader” would have a better shot for drumline. The “ringleader” I will tell you that we have had our differences in the past and I overlooked them because I actually thought that she want ed to be my friend. I then started to ignore them and then they started the rumors. They would say that the only reason I was in band was because of my sister, which is false I am in band because I enjoy it.

They came up with all these awful things about me and I couldn’t take it. The new group of friends I was hanging out with started to fight back with me and then we got a small feud going between these groups. As of right now being in a new school and having old friends back I’ve been careful with who I hang out with. I’ve been getting better about who I think is a friend and who is using me.

I’ve learned my lesson. I’m an open book, but a closed friend. It takes time to get to know the real me. It takes time to know my past mistakes.